With the Holy Spirit

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Wonderful Savior/My heart belongs to thee/I will remember always the blood You shed for me/Wonderful Savior/My heart will know Your worth/So I will embrace You always as I walk this Earth

Be Blessed/Be loved/Be lifted high/Be treasured here/Be glorified/I owe my life to You my Lord/ Here I am...

Beautiful Jesus/How may I bless your heart/Knees to the Earth I bow down to everything You are/Beautiful Jesus/You are my only worth/So I will embrace You always as I walk this Earth

http://www.auburnskye.com/audio/Watermark-KneesToTheEarth.mp3

I wrote down the lyrics for the song. The meaning behind the song was accentuated by yesterday's session. 3 words to describe. Amazing. Authentic. Awesome.

[A reflection...]
My train of thoughts the past 2 weeks have been chaotic 'cuz of so many things happening all at once at work, at home and outside. Think some will understand when I say that sometimes, you know that there's something bugging you, but you don't exactly know what and you can't put it in words, neither can you put it across to anybody 'cuz no one can fully understand. And even if there's a way to say it, the interpretation will never be fully right.

There's only One who can understand...

Here it goes:

[Yesterday night...]
Sometimes I wonder how is it that God finds ways to answer me. He's always done so in funny ways. And this time, He did so by the word of knowledge from someone. You know how freaky it is when someone who totally doesn't know what's going on in your life, tells you exactly what is going on in your life by giving you an answer?! Ok, that still scares me even though I'm more or less used to it cuz it doesn't happen very often to me and this time, I knew that it was me and I really didn't expect it to come. But I know for sure that it is an answer from Him. Praise You Abba!

-Yours truly ;

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

http://www.auburnskye.com/audio/Watermark-KneesToTheEarth.mp3

Was listening to this song minutes before hanging up on the phone. Bogged down with problems, I felt horrible. That self-loathing of not being able to reach out to the precious souls in my life just makes my mood go spirling down (-.-) Especially when there's more than it meets in the eye...

These past few days, it has been raining every afternoon. Even so, I've not been caught in the rain (thank God!). Happened to bring my umbrella yesterday when I went to school on Monday when I usually don't bring at all. And today, the rain was really bad but when I stepped out of school, the rain stopped almost completely. And by the time I reached the driving centre, it wasn't even raining. Ha... =D

And even if there was something that went wrong in one way or another in school, the day still turns out pretty ok.

If there is someone here on Earth right now who really listened to all my crap these few days and tahan all the rubbish that I've been raining on him, it will be the one who's been right where he is - beside me. I'm sorry I've been a broken recorder to you. Repeating everything and complaining all the way until you got so sick of me but never tried to shut me up. Wonder how is it that my best friends, Jimmy as well, managed to sail through the years that we've been together with my incessant complains. I thank our Lord for the precious relationships that he has blessed me with (^-^)

I love this song...

Courtesy of Paul =)

Be blessed... be loved... be lifted high...be treasured here...be glorified...I owe my life to you my Lord.
Here I am...

-Yours truly ;

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Reminiscing the past. I had a wonderful time with a really good friend of mine over the phone not long ago. It's been long since school days and so many things have happened that it is all but a whirlwind of events. Huh? =)

We were just talking about things in general and sharing all the stories that we had. One of the things we were talking about was whether he would mind if his girlfriend would one day be more successful than him. One thing he said to me was this, "It doesn't matter about the money you have, or the type of car that you drive, neither does it matter the type of job that you hold or the kind of certificates that you acheive, because often, these are the things that put a stumbling block in all kinds of relationships". Friend, I share the same sentiments.

Often wonder why is it that materialistic things have such a firm hold in our minds. In school, students do so much and try their might to be the top of the tops. Some even, taking the selfish route to success in the process. And when they do not get what they desire, the whole world seems unfair. At work, some people do all sorts of dirty trcks and try all sorts of ways to cover their own backsides so as to climb the corporate ladder and acheive the highest. In life, people seek the best to themselves - cool car, big house etc. Unsatisfied. The list will never end.

True, in another perspective, we seek the highest to the best of our abilities because of expectations that we have to meet. And yes, money runs the world. To feed ourselves, we need money. To support our children, we need money. In everything that we do, we need money. But when are we ever satisfied when we have enough money and arrogance and pride takes precedence?

I leave you with my thoughts...

-Yours truly ;

Friday, April 14, 2006

I've no heart to continue marking anymore...The more I stare at the papers, the worse the results are =( Wonder whether it's my fault. Or the setter's fault. Or the girls?

Went church visiting today with Paul and company. Was my first time at the Cathedral of Good Shepherd and it was such an honour to have the Archbishop as the celebrant for mass. When the scene for the washing of the 12 'disciples' feet was re-enacted with the Archbishop washing 12 of the congregation members, I couldn't help but try to picture Jesus doing that centuries ago. Remembered what Father Luke said during Lenten Vigil last Saturday about churches in other countries who took in 12 of the poorest vagrants in the city to wash their feet during the re-enactment scene. The meaning behind it was so simple yet so complex.

No longer called slaves.."Love one another just as I have loved you."

After that, we went to the Church of St. Peter and St. Paul, then St Joseph Cathedral...thereafter, our last stop was Our Lady of Lourdes. In all the stops, I prayed that I would learn something from each visit. And I did!! =)

Myrrh (eh, i believe it's spelt like that..i think!) - One of the 3 gifts presented to Jesus on His birthday. Symbolism of death and the sacrifice and love he had for us when he died on the cross.

Burning candle - Like the flame, His love for us is fierce and strong. Warm it is, waiting for us to see it and feel the warmth of His nearness and His passion for us.

Suddenly thought about what happened on Saturday during Lenten Vigil. I never thought that I'd have the past knocking on my door for many nights to date. Better yet, I never thought that things would turn out the way they did on that day - with God's grace...(^-^)

-Yours truly ;