Monday, August 20, 2007
24 Hour Fast
That's what I did over the weekend. Fasting:
For Asia Solidarity Together.
Through this 24 hour FAST, we youths learn how we can play a role to eradicate poverty in Asia and be witnesses of Christ's love.
I starved for 24 hours!!!! But praise God that He fed me...spiritually. I learnt something, I can actually be hungry and my tummy growl like mad for the first few hours, then feel no pangs of hunger for 15+ hours...hee. Ahh...that's how people go on hunger strike.
I can never see goldfishes the same way again. They looked so glorious and delicious swimming just from left to right in the fishtank...as my tummy just complained like crazy.
And hunger really does do things to people. Plus smelliness, and yuckiness mixed in with hunger. We gave up our clothes, and bathing stuffs, and we wore the same clothes that we came in for 2 days 1 night. Thanks to Father Terence's inspirational talk of how we can become one of the poorest of the poor by giving up our clothes, handphones, washing stuffs. Aiya, basically everything that you bring to a camp. And cuz of our want to experience what the poor experience, we volunteered to do just that - become the poorest of the poor, sleeping in slums (we did our own cardboard-made homes).
The story of the Ugly Toads and the Princes.
For one, my mei became more figitey and action-belek.
Wan became more grouchy and loud, plus weird.
Van became more whiney and complained to the high heavens.
Reginald became very very quiet.
And I think I became more talkative than never before, quite mad at times, and also doing strange things.
But no one really could shut me up, save for only one. Eh, sorry for talking too much, I'm asking Papa to grant me the gift of quietness and listening =D
During fast: We're ugly toads.
After fast: We're princes.
Umm, one more thing. Sorry mei, for my smelly feet disturbing you...haha!
I wonder what 30Hours of Fasting will do to us. U people ready for it? I say, let's go try this out...heh. Anybody game to join? It'll be a greeeat experience!
Gooo Fish!
=D
-Yours truly ;
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Doing good when it hurts
In the midst of it all,
This was what You saw.
Often I questioned,
"Where's the rightness in the wrongness?"
That Lord,
the Strong, the Rich, the Powerful;
the well-known - they always "won".
I'd hide away
the tears
that threatened and fell
when there was Saul.
The David in me,
kept trusting,
kept hurting.
You Knew
and You lifted me up
when I cried out loud.
Together,
we ran the race.
You and I.
And when the veil was torn,
the race,
true victory,
We finally won.
Amen.
=Inspired by the Book of Samuel-King Saul and David=
-Yours truly ;
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Unveiling...
Sharing the Warmth with a Caring Touch
A NUS-USP-KKH Fundraising competition to be held in June 2008! Student-initiated, passion-inspired, to fundraise for the cleft lip children! =D
Though it's gonna be a good deal of hard work waiting for us to do, but at least it is something to look forward to planning!!!
Ever since helping out with the kids at hospital few months back, and distributing food aid, and teaching at Yogyakarta with the UN, I really miss being with these precious ones. I miss being with my kids and teaching them catechism in St. Stephen's primary, strangely, even though all were boys. Remembering how I spent Valentine's day with them this year...haha! And I miss Bintan, when I was teaching English to the younger ones in the poorer villages at the outskirts during college vacation and remembering how I struggled to translate English to Bahasa when teaching during lessons. Not to mention, my Bahasa was quite koyak. Heh.
I'd forgotten all my Bahasa now. But I believe it is still somewhere in my brains. Just as how mandarin, and french are swimming somewhere inside head, I think I will be able to speak, when the need arises. Hopefully lah.
-Yours truly ;
Monday, August 06, 2007
It's my 100th post since I first started blogging! Waa!!!
Why in the world did I keep blogging? I never could find the motivation to keep writing in a blog, as I would in my personal diary. But I realised unknowingly that I have indeed the motivation to write! Simply cuz I wanted not only to reach out to all my friends who are overseas and have 'em updated somewhat about me, as I am updated by them, but more than that, to let this be a blog to bear testimony since the day I said yes to the Lord.
It's not a life of endless wonders and beauties that my life will have. Realised that some of my posts reflected the feelings that I have had at that point in time in my life. Perhaps not fully as there is only so much that can be revealed. And it also reflected my ideas and perspectives of things, but also not fully cuz you people will probably squint so much and give up reading halfway. Heh.
Writing, I realised how much "torture" I had to go through over the years, as a friend of mine often laments, that my blog can sometimes be pretty depressing. Heh. A, there is joy too you know!
But at the same time, when there are tortures, strangely, there are also people whom God has plopped along the way to help me in my spiritual journey.
When earlier, politics in church had pushed me to the point of 'no return' when I finally said,
"I'm so tired, I just want to be normal".
It had hit me that, then, I was so tempted to leave the church and just abandon everything that had been given to me by God. I was close to disowning God.
But as always, God always came to my rescue despite how ungrateful I was. And He brought me back to His love.
It's as if I had a fight in a relationship, but I cannot bear to leave this God I love so much, simply because love is not a feeling. It is a conviction. As much as I try to deny it, I can never ever deny the fact that God loves me.
I found myself back again. I knew this time I was, 101% normal. Not THAT kind of normal that I had wanted to be earlier. But this time, it is knowing that I am normal simply because of my identity in Christ.
Thank you, my dearest brother, beloved son of our Father, and my dearest one. If not for you, and your yes to God to be His instrument for Him to work through you, as well as your fervent prayers and your endless encouragement, amidst making me laugh and see light as I struggled in the "torture", standing by me to fight this battle with me as my comrade, I would still have remained in the darkest of pits. I thank God for you everyday..and I thank God for allowing you to plop into my life in such an unexpecting way. Thank you most of all, Holy Spirit, for guiding us always, forever and through eternity.
Papa, I love you.
-Yours truly ;
Thursday, August 02, 2007
I'm on campus now.
And I don't exactly have the desire to come back to campus in a week's time. Why?
It's strange that Jia is wanting to go back to school, and well, true, there really is quite a lot to look forward to. On the other hand, I don't look forward to school cuz the stress is there. Kuzzin Eric shares my sentiments, he's in NTU, and I am in NUS. We're both looking towards our next 3 months break...trying to be optimistic lest we get swept away into the dark hole of turmoil. Trying as best as we can...and depending on our Lord to guide us. Yes, kuzzin? =)
Travelling on the bus to campus, I had went past the familiar grounds to school, sitting on the bus for an hour plus until my butt was so sore. And I sat there, thinking about the whirlwind of events that happened over the past few months...
I don't regret going where the Lord led me...not at all. And I thank him for all that He is, being so wonderfully gracious, and merciful and generous even though I was not worthy of it.
-Yours truly ;
