Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way,
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
-Yours truly ;
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
It's holidays!!!!! 4th day into my hols...heh. I'm only happy that I have somewhat of a break (though I can't exactly say it really is a break for us cuz we have to mug mug mug for mid terms), then again, I get to have a BIT of rest =)
I still am stressed. Oh Lord, save me! Save my friends who feel the same. We're breaking the threshold..ARGH!
...
Meeting up with Mer not long ago, I thought about what we surmised of the "little angels" in our lives...
I'd thought of the the many angels in my life...(I only wrote some of them down)
3 special ones - 2 of whom have stood by me for a decade plus and the other for almost 1 decade. They've seen me at my best, and at my worst.
Another who butted into my life, always trying to pick a fight with me, but always caring for me behind that fierce yucky front...seeing me thru the storms I weathered by and giving in to my demands.
One who promised God something...fulfilling it as time went by, and brought me nearer to God without knowing so.
One more...who, gave me a listening ear and whose strong faith saw us through everyday in school.
This old angel too...who brought me through my test safely, caring for me as his own daughter.
And one old angel...though not THAT old, but still she thinks she's old. This wonderful one who always had time for me and shared with me her life and made me laugh.
And this other special angel who touched my life...coming in not by accident, and definitely not by chance. Teaching me the meaning of love...of friendship...of life. Bringing life to me when I felt that there was no life. Making me see the rainbow through the rain.
My road and yours is filled with nails which pierce our feet as we walk on...but still we walk, hurting and bleeding our way. We will never perish, but suffer and bleed, until we reach the end where the cross is and He will pick those nails out of our feet...one by one, the hurt when he picks them out makes our heart ache..and reminds us of the past. But slowly and surely...the wounds will heal and joy awaits as we leave them all behind...
This is what keeps me going...
-Yours truly ;
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Just want to share something =)
I got up early one morning,
and rushed right into the day.
I had so much to accomplish
that I didn't have much time to pray.
Problems just tumbled about me,
and heavier came each task.
Why doesn't God helo me, I wondered.
He answered, "You didn't ask."
I wanted to see joy and beauty,
but the day toiled on,
gray and bleak.
I wondered why God didn't show me.
He said, "But you didn't seek."
I tried to come into God's presence.
I used all the keys at the lock.
God gently and lovingly chided,
"My child, you didn't knock."
I woke up early this morning.
And paused before entering the day.
I had so much to accomplish,
that I had to take time to pray.
P.S. I passed my driving!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! So happy! So sooo happy!!! And congrats to my dear terri too!!! Yay!!! Both of us passed!!! Haha!
-Yours truly ;
Saturday, September 02, 2006
The injustice and unfairness of it all that would have led any sane person go mad and land themselves in the asylum.
Imagine you.
A wire.
Bent and twisted-
formed and deformed-
no will.
The master does what he sees fit.
To you.
A wire.
The metaphor only understandable to those who knows what is going on...
But I find my solace in the words given to me through others in their prayers for me...Praise the Lord.
"Don't be afraid of your enemies; always be courageous, and this will prove to them that they will lose and you will win, because it is God who gives you the victory. For you have been given the privilege of serving Christ, not only by believing in him, but also by suffering for him. Now you can take part with me in the battle. It is the same battle you saw me fighting in the past, and as you hear, the one I am fighting still." =Philippians 1, 28-30
"We know that in all things God works for good with those who love him, those whom he has clled accordingn to his purpose" = Romans 8, 28
There's no such thing as coincidence. By words of wisdom, by words of knowlege. I thank you, my Lord.
Of those who feel the same way as I did at some point in your life, this solace becomes yours as well.. (^-^)
-Yours truly ;
