Wednesday, November 29, 2006
I'm feeling super high and super motivated for my next paper. I went SHOPPING yesterday!!!!! SHOPPING!!! Omg, that was serious retail therapy for my state of mind and deprivation of shopping ever since uni started. And I felt so guilty spending so much, but really happy too. That's the irony of it. I'm so gonna work during my holz to pay it off. Oh man, but that felt so good, especially after my triple heart attack and mugging like a siao char boh. Heh. Bought 2 tops - one kimono styled top (it's so pretty!!!! Right fei?? Hee) and another tank top with a drape over (tt was so cool!), a pink stiletto (last pair on the shelve) and another stuff I bought for someone's birthday..(let's see..hmm..who's birthday is it on the 13th dec??? =P Aa...I hope it doesn't rot by the time it reaches you lor..else I might as well eat it myself. Hee hee. ) And I saw the Levi's watch that I've been eyeing for ages!!!! For 6 months to date!!! Thought that it was sold out 'cuz it had been some time since we girls saw that watch on the shelf. But we saw it at orchard!!!!!!!!! Darn...but it's so expensive. Haiz.
Anywayz, had a really good time yesterday w my girlfriend. I love u darling! Can't wait for the 4th after my exams when all of us can go out as a khaki again...Yay!!!
And also, I think I had therapy on da phone yesterday...somewhat...hee hee. Thank you stoopid. I know I talk a lot...and you keep implying that I'm a parrot. U shit ass. Hee. Love you sista. Thanks for always lending one ear to me, and using the other side of the ear to crap to me. Missing you. You better get ur butt here in Singapore quick!!! Else I won't forgive you. Heh.
And to phae and the rest of my girl and guy friends out there...hang in there k!!! Soon...it'll be over...soon!!!!!!!
-Yours truly ;
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Reaching home not long ago, I looked up the sky...and saw so many stars shining so bright, marveling it's beauty and soaking in the wonders that they have displayed for all to see. One day...one day...I will be there to see it all...the magnificence of the rainbows of starlight...
Somehow, as I pondered deep in thought while walking home, I thought how good it is that at some point in our lives, we meet people who, in our view, are not ideal ones that we would want to be with.
Those that hurt us-they serve to strengthen our souls and build our characters when we learn to forgive and let go.
Those who backstab us-they serve to sharpen our eyes and make us street-smart.
Those who are liars-they serve to be mirrors of our beings to examine our conscience and build a foundation of morals and values.
Those who are selfish-they serve to let us look into our hearts and test our generosity and magnanimity.
Those who are hypocrites-they serve to be mirrors of our souls and teach us to examine the way we treat others.
A poem that Mother Teresa held dear to her heart, and so should we.
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind,
People may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be Kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis,
it is between you and God;
It is never between you and them anyway.
It's meaningful.
Raindrops on roses...
=When I'm feeling sad, I simply remember my favorite things;
and then I don't feel so bad =
Yours truly
-Yours truly ;
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Juz before I start cracking my head and spilling my innards over organic chem (I'm with u jia..heh =D), not to forget adding a bit of sugar and spice for my research presentation tomorrow, I thought about sharing these photos that I took in uni. Last day of school was 2 days ago and our class with Dr. Don was amazing!!! Yeah, I was damn stressed because of the datelines that I had to meet everyday, especially so when Dr. Don was so demanding! (Phae and Jia, u both can be testimony to my stress, considering how u all took in my whines, tears and complaints. Thank u...) But despite so, this is the best module that I have taken out of the 5 that I'm juggling with, simply cuz of the friends that I have made and the bonds that hold me to the campus that I can never have anywhere else in this cold isolated world of academics in campus life.
A cake of appreciation. That cake costs me a bomb. Bleah. But it's worth it.
Haha!
A final end..but not to an end of a journey of learning.
To my mei...the poem I wrote and sent to u...and u sent back to me when I was feeling very low; made me realise how much I can lift someone from juz a simple prayer, and in turn be lifted up by the same prayer just by a single action of love. This poem from me to you, from you to me...and now, from us to everyone:
Abba, I lift this precious child of God in your hands...
Putting all his/her worries and doubts in your hands.
Still his/her heart Abba and take away all his/her anxiety.
Calm his/her heart and fill him/her with your love.
Abba, we know that you make all things that are impossible, possible.
I ask only for your wisdom and guidance in my sister/brother.
Amen.
-Yours truly ;
Friday, November 17, 2006
I deserve this. Honestly. Feeling miserable. Never knew I could fall so deep down to the pit.
I know it's my fault,
all of them in my thoughts.
I need to draw strength,
stretch me to that length.
No one else but me to blame,
putting myself to shame...
I'm running away...
I need to.
Know my priorities.
The importance of it all.
I'm chasing for my dreams.
Don't go after me,
Don't talk to me,
Don't ask me.
Please.
Thank you.
Lord, help me.
-Yours truly ;
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
(^-^)
-Yours truly ;
Sunday, November 12, 2006
It's past 12...and I'm 19!!!!! Officially!!! YAY!!! Haha... Thank you to all of you who wished me, dropping me messages and calling me. I know that many of you are having exams. But just the thought of it and remembering my birthday means so much to me and I'm just so happy for that day...(^-^) *hugz* to my jie meis (hang in there k girls!) , my besties...girlfriends...and churchmates.
And especially to dearest Stoopid,
thank you for making my day so special. I don't know how else to talk to you but through my blog cuz you see it everyday (or so you say =P) And it's just your presence that means so much. Thank you for travelling 12 hours altogether just to see me...all the way from med school in KL (risking ppl call you gila for going to s'pore in the middle of semester..Haha!), thank you for your (impromptu) present (horrible you...heh. But I don't really bother much about it cuz it's just you being there that really matters.)...thank you for dropping by my house just to spend time with me and surprise me, and being so sneaky to lias with Esther!!!! Plus being so mean and ignoring me for 1 month plus just to make me think and feel as if you don't care about me??!!! RAA!) And most of all..thank you for making true your promise made to me. When I'd often think that promises are all words with no meaning, you made me see otherwise. And I thank our Lord for you...
Don't know how to describe this friendship of ours but I know that through distances, our friendship will never change cuz feelings still remain through the years, only growing richer and stronger as we journey through life. And I thank Abba for you...for bringing you into my life.
To Terri girl...thank you dear. Thank you for just spending time with me for lunch and refusing to let me mope around and mug. I was DARN tempted to head straight for my books but you tore me out of it...(U too stoopid! Bleah) Most of all, thank you for just forking out time even though you're having exams next week and everyone is mugging cuz you promised me that you would spend time with me on my birthday if plans get thwarted by unforseen circumstances of the dense brainity. (I think you and I know what it is..shhh..haha)
I'm just happy too....for my family. Busy as they are, they made the effort to make this day special for me...and for the first time, I heard my brothers SING (as in really SING) a birthday song for me...heh. So happy la.
Thank you.
-Yours truly ;
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Super duper uber stressed. And I thought that it'll all be over in college. Here we go again...! Sigh. Phae's blog lifted the frowns from my face up with her sunny side up. Haha..you go girl. Exams are around the corner...ok, no, that's an understatement. IT'S LIKE HOW NEAR?!!!! How does anyone survive the stress of uni life?!!!! And why does everyone say that uni life is so much better and uh..."stress-free"?! Yeeeah right. And now I know why I'm not getting those As in my last lab report. That Andrew just had to mark my paper and give me a rubbish grade after disturbing me during my experiments and and making me go mad with experiments while he happily graded me down. And to think I nominated him for the Teaching Award?! AHH. Hmm, but oh well...that guy really does deserve it considering how much he helped me.
And I'm going to the zoo for lab session tomorrow!!!! I can't believe it. I feel like a kid. It's been eons ever since I stepped into the zoo. Entering uni is like... entering a kid zone within a war zone of stress. Going to the park..Changi Beach..Sungei Buloh Nature Reserve...Botanical Gardens...and ZOO!!!!! Haha! I feel like bringing my camera tomorrow. That will seem quite off though. It's suppose to be all serious; observing animal behaviour and characteristics and...blah.
Nevertheless, I'm feeling more fired up to do my essays, especially that research thesis on animal rights and another on Neanderthals...
To my mei mei and to my girls having Os...Jia you!!!!! Hang in there!!!!!! (^-^) Your da jie is also stressed...but we'll fight this battle together. Yeeha! =D
I'm inspired by Shakespeare's Julius Caesar. Can't help but use Caesar's words against his Brutus and write what I feel right now..
=Amidst e pantomime behind e masquerade of apathy=
"Et tu mon cheri??? Then fall...*a stab on my faith*
Even so, I believe in God...in Him I trust in all that we are. Cuz He makes things beautiful in His time.
Shakespeare in Love.
-Yours truly ;
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A final end..but not to an end of a journey of learning.