With the Holy Spirit

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Second day of school!!!! School's been fun...somewhat. With one of my fav prof who taught me ah-gee and foo-gee (aka algae and fungi), now taking me for evolution, and a lecture today by a prof teaching me on blackholes, wormholes, galaxies, stars and einstein's weirdness of quantum theory, (whose pants I feels seems a wee bit high for him, but a passionate lecuturer to boot), as well as an amusing cute lady prof taking me for singapore studies, who is certainly very dimplomatic in showing us how the govt structure can be slammed instead of steering towards pure propaganda, I'm starting to settle in comfortably into the semester. Well, at least for the moment when the workload has not crushed me, and I don't feel like a tortoise with a heavy shell - YET! Ha...

I missed the holz. Thought about it, as i reminisced to last month just after exams ended and realised that I've been thoroughly enjoying my holz to the fullest, and going out almost every day, save for the last 3 days of Friday, Saturday and Sunday. A turn of events during those days served to make me really sit down and think about my life and make decisions as well as take risks, that is entwined in God's grace and His plans for me.

Sometimes it gets so weary, wondering where it is that I will go, what I will do, and what will become of me. Life certainly is NOT a mess, but it is just the painful decisions that I have to make, and also, the sacrifices that my loved ones have made, that nearly tore my heart as God painted a picture in front of me not long ago. I admit, I have been weary...I have been tired emotionally and mentally...and I have been feeling down for the last three days. Thank you to all those who have been there to hold me, to hug me, to wipe my tears away, to listen, to lend me a shoulder and simply, just to be there for me. Things haven't been easy. And I know that life is not a bed of roses as things will not be easy from here on. But I will hang on. And I know I can...with God's strength. I can.

=A man's heart plans his way," Soloman wrote, "but the Lord directs his steps"=Proverbs 16:9

Should mystery enshroud His plan
And our short sight be dim,
we will not try the whole to scan
But leave each thread to Him
-Murray

-Yours truly ;