Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Random whirls of thoughts:
What will you do if you had a love lost???
What will you do if you loved someone you never knew???
What will you do if you loved someone, but he/she had to leave the Earth because they belonged somewhere better??
What if you loved someone, but it was not meant to be?
What if you waited too long, only to realise the one you loved had gone to the arms of another?
What if you loved someone, but your heart was torn into pieces because the one you loved fell for another?
What will you do if you never knew until it was too late, that the person you loved was gone??
Bits and pieces of stories around me...of heartaches...Sigh.
Feeling sad cuz of things happening to people around me. There is no "why" cuz there are reasons for things to happen the way they do...
=When the darkness closes in Lord, still I will say, Blessed be the name of the Lord, Blessed be Your name=
Sometimes I have that picture of myself climbing up the stairs...and dancing in those beautiful white robes in the court...His Court.
-Yours truly ;
Thursday, March 22, 2007
I'm confused. Why??? It's just one of those days when I just want to go to the rooftop. The last time was one week ago. I felt so good. It's that feeling I had when I sneaked out the car to drive along the highway all by myself. I found myself.
I want to lie down... gaze at the stars with only the clouds, the nightsky...the stars for company.
I want to be left alone. But at the same time I don't. I'm confused.
Torn in thoughts.
I know that the Lord is good to me... I know that Papa's been helping me...I know that I'm His Child, His Princess, His Love...His Precious One...
-Yours truly ;
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Researching on Sexual Evolution for my thesis....
Why, in spite of trends towards slimness or plumpness, are men attracted to curvaceous "hourglass" feminine figures, while women generally prefer broad shouldered T-shaped male physiques?
Based on evolutionary theory, then it should not be surprising that men find visual cues to attractiveness more relevant in selecting a mate than women do. As Donald Symons, a University of California anthropologist tells us, this makes sense, since a greater proportion of women’s traditional reproductive mate value can be assessed visually. The clearest feminine cue to fertility is the curving contours created by the contrast between waist and hips. This fat carried in the hips and thighs which creates feminine curves represent the stored calories needed by the mature female to sustain a pregnancy. Interestingly, men presented with silhouettes of women of various heights and weights and asked to choose the most sexually attractive, consistently selected those with an hour-glass shape. Surprisingly, this shape preference even superseded preferences related to apparent plumpness or slimness. Interestingly, scientists have found that female reproductive capacity shows a positive correlation with the sharp contrast between waist and hips of this figure type. Preferred female facial features; wide-set large eyes, small nose and jaw; are imitative of youth and untapped reproductive potential. Similarly, the muscular, angular T-shaped male figure, assertive behaviors, and deep voice most universally preferred by women, are visually indicative of higher levels of the male hormone testosterone (Cowley, 1996).
Ahhh. Ok... I may not have an ideal 34.24.36 hourglass figure by Asian standards, or the 36.24.36 hourglass figure by the American Pop culture standards cuz I'm one or 2 inches off em, esp at the waist and the hips...(BY THE WAY, neither do all males have perfect T-shaped, muscular figures. Cross my heart, never lie, poke a needle in my eye, I am 101% sure of that!) but oh well...that doesn't make us all losers righto? Heh. A critical me will prefer the notion that humans based on primitive instincts will prefer this physical sexual characteristics, BUT those who put their emotional (feelings), mental(thinking), into good and wonderful use, will beg to differ. HA!
Hourglass huh!
There must a conspiracy going on to eliminate all flat-chested, or too well-endowed, stick-like or too fleshy women...Oh!
-Yours truly ;
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
A: Knock knock.
B: Who's there?
A: Nobody...
B: .........hello? *nudge*
A: ......
B: ooook...ha. That's funny.
What is happiness??
I recommend this movie "The pursuit of Happyness". Totally. Beyond looking at the pursuit of happiness as the pursuit of materialistic gains, the movie gives deep insight. It tells us of struggles experienceed in the pursuit of happiness.
For a secular movie, I give Will Smith 5 stars out of 5. For a Christian's point of view, I give him 3 stars out of 5.
From a secular point perspective:
It tells us of the struggles one goes through, the pain, the humiliation, the cruelty that life can inflict, yet the beauty that life can portray. It is about determination. It is about perseverence. It is about finding oneself in the midst of discrimination. It is about finding joy in the midst of pain. But also, it tells us that money makes the world go round.
From a biblical perspective:
True Happiness:
Happy are those who know they are spiritually poor;
the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to them!
Happy are those who mourne;
God will comfort them!
Happy are those who are humble;
they will receive what God has promised!
Happy are those whose greatest desire is to do what God requires;
God will satisfy them fully!
Happy are those who are merciful to others;
God will be merciful to them!
Happy are the pure in heart;
they will see God!
Happy are those who work for peace;
God will call them his children!
Happy are those who are persecuted because they do what God requires;
the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to them. -Matthew
It's hard to digest. A thousand questions tumbling over you. How to understand such happiness? Can poor people be happy? Or is it that because money makes the world go round, so it is that happy is money and money is happy? What do you think? Which perspective do you take to? Can we have the best of both worlds? Well, to be fair, I think the movie did try to have a balance of both perspectives.
So...
What is YOUR happiness?
Have you really been happy?
I think I have been really happy. Once. On the 11th December 2005.
Have you?
-Yours truly ;
Monday, March 05, 2007
Yeees, I know I haven't been updating!! I'm sorry!. Been taking a pretty loong break. Well, not exactly break. Break wasn't break. Chinese New Year wasn't Chinese New Year.
This is a self-confession of a violated, nasty-tempered, irritated and frustrated 19 year and 4 month plus year old lady monster....
My life is a stage- my darlings are my professors, my relationships are my studies, my meals are my lectures and tutorials, my breathing space is only when I'm alone without intrusion. I feel violated, violated because I'm being watched every where I go. It's getting on me that not only my family members, but also my neighbours, can watch my every move - when I'm bathing (unless I do so uncomfortably sitting down), when I'm studying, when I'm sleeping, when I'm singing, when I'm dancing, when I'm talking. I feel violated. I feel like tearing down that big bungalow with the overlooking balcony across my street- that darn surveillence camera. I'm in a very horrible mood right now.
I feel like I'm being torn apart, inside out. Dug up, upside down. I need space. I need time. I need...sigh. I'm tired from deprived mental energy, robbed from personal time, stolen from my own self.
Yeah, I need my 3 months break. Soon. Period.
-Yours truly ;
Hourglass huh!