With the Holy Spirit

Monday, May 28, 2007

Thank you Tnt, thank you Paul..thank you Iwan...thank you Jac dear. I really felt so alone yesterday in the hostel in Italy. I needed someone to talk to, to tell me everything was going to be allright. And I know I will feel even more alone when I am in France cuz I'm the only one staying in the outskirts of Lyon while most of the others are staying in Lyon and elsewhere. God, Im being made such a darn fool.

How can God be so good to me, yet, so 'cruel'?
Firenze (Florence) is beautiful with its cathedrals, Basilicas, churches, museums and streets. First day of Firenze, I met David Cloetingue, a Hollander and Italian. Studying in the uni in Italy, it really not by chance that we met, cuz he brought us, my mum and I all around Florence, even in the mountain tops to see the Florentine night lights. And being a really devout Catholic, there was so much to share. On the way, I'd also met Cora, a Honkonger and medicine grad, now doing Masters in US, and Steve, a Honkonger-Canadian, who just graduated from Canada uni. It was fun...just going everywhere together, though I was still the youngest of them all. Sigh. Yesterday, I brought my mum to Pisa, even though I didn know exactly what or where to go, but still found my way with lots of help from the Italians and my broken Italian and French. And from Pisa, we went to Siena to meet up with David, Cora and Steve, and we just walked around the streets and visited cathedrals.

And God is cruel to me. I was so angry...being made such a fool. I know I did my best for uni..I tired hard, but just because of THAT module!!!! And those unscrupulous, disgusting people who cheated, and a professor who is a big, fat liar...Everything went down down down.

=( why...

Why is the world so unfair?

It is not fair...=(

=Lord, I need you...I love you. Why do you keep testing me and breaking me time and agian when you know that I love you so and all I want to do is to bring glory to You???=

-Yours truly ;