With the Holy Spirit

Friday, December 30, 2005

I passed!!! I passed the test!!! Haha! So happy!!! My morning started out great. I'm so ecstatic that I passed with just one click of the comp. "Are you sure u want to end the test?" For a moment, I looked around and still saw people clicking...then I pressed "no" Again it popped up. "Are you sure you want to end the test?" Oh darn...YES!!! And there they were, those BIG words "PASSED" Wa, so happy! Ok fine, I know I was so kan cheong earlier. Sorry Phae, sorry mer, I can't help it. It's me lah. I still remember what you said Phae, "For goodness sake, if the lorry driver who doesn't even know English can pass this test, I'm sure that you can too also lor" Hee. Thanks for trying to calm my nerves yesterday. And Jac, though you "pang seh" me last minute,( I did want to murder you for doing that by the way), I pondered a while after that and thought that yeah, it would be pretty mad of you to prepare so early when you've got so many weeks ahead before you sit for your test =D

Double joy awaited me when I came out of the room to see a rose waiting for me. Silly. It's ok. I know I ought to understand. I remember Jimmy ever did telling me that no matter what happens, in any kind of relationship that one is in, be it parents, friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, wives... to withstand any conflict and misunderstanding, one must have patience, tolerance and plenty of understanding. Sometimes it is so very easy to say something but yet when it comes to doing it, it becomes a different story altogether. Maybe that is why Jimmy was able to survive 2 years of nonsense from me =) [By the way, if you are reading this, I'm telling you that you're on no man's land. I've heard nothing from you for the past number of donkey weeks for your information!!!! =( ]

In the afternoon, I found myself at the adoration room with Alp. I just HAD to offer thanksgiving to my Father for seeing me through the last couple of days, especially the night before and for that morning for calming my nerves and bringing something so special into my heart. It surprised me when He kept telling me to trust in Him. I remembered that the night before, I was holding on so tightly to the rosary which said "Jesus, I trust in thee"...
I couldn't control my physical self, but I knew that I could resist. Geez...Imagine falling when there are so many people around. I didn't want to. It scared me to think that I might scare others. I thought that "Hey, if there isn't anyone around, it wouldn't be so bad, would it?" But strange enough, the room ALWAYS has someone there at any point of time. And there again, He told me to get on my knees. This time, I knew I really didn't bother if there were anyone in the room...

I placed the rose at the feet of Mother Mary. Had a lot running through my mind when I read the letter. I don't deserve the rose, it is with our Mother's intercession and His help that everything turned out so beautiful. Often, it is said that it takes Three to made one whole. (^-^)

Today's the Feast of the Holy Family. Thanks to fonz for telling me so. [Dear boy, don't worry all right? I know what to do =) ]

Phae, I'm so happy that we went out today. I miss you..I miss you..I miss you!!! I missed you so much. You're so silly. You're my best friend Phae, don't ever think that I don't need you ok? You gave me this verse before,

"A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity =Proverbs 17:17"

I love you and I thank our Father that He brought you to me. I'm so happy that you understand what I'm going through. You surprised me when you told me to place my trust in Him. *sigh* Supposedly coincidental but certainly not coincidental. Phae, thank you for your prayers and your faith in Him as well as in me.

-Yours truly ;