With the Holy Spirit

Monday, December 26, 2005

Know you people have been bugging me to blog. Sorry ppl. Sigh, it's 1 day after Christmas. Well, there are 12 days of Christmas, ain't there? If only everyday can be Christmas!! How wonderful that will be!!

These few days have been so hectic! Hardly do I have time to stop to breath when things keep coming down upon me. Ups and downs...ups and downs... sometimes, I just cannot take it anymore. Yesterday night was suppose to be joyous. Christmas IS a time to be joyous, isn't it? Well...the evening was fun. Went to church with fel for Christmas mass. It was so funny. You all ought to visit her blog at www.livejournal.com/~eat_muh_shorts Crazy girl!!! You wrote your entry at 3a.m and messaged me at that time only to ask me to read the blog dedicated to me?! Haha..you're nuts! T'was a great experience though. Ah well, there's always a first time in everything, especially a first time attending a supposedly cute Hebrew mass which turned out to be a chinese mass.. (^-^)
=Wrote this in the afternoon=

=Early in the morning past midnight=
Just feel so down now. For 2 days in a row, I've been quarrelling with my parents. Christmas was suppose to be joyous, but this year I didn't feel that way. I tried so hard to please. I didn't retort nor did I bite back at anything my mum said. I didn't even blame her for the endless blasphemies she spilled and for taking it out on my brothers when they tried to defend me. I feel so guilty that my bro, Kel had to bear the brunt of damage done. If I hadn't started out and fought with my mum, none of these would have happened. Neither would my second bro, ken be feeling so horrible when our mum discouraged him. I felt so terrible today. I held my tongue the whole day (I can't believe I listened to you dear monster...) but later at night, I really couldn't control myself and lashed out at her. I know I must have hurt her terribly.. =(

Thank u jac...thank u for calling me at the right time. I'm really so happy that I have you as my best friend. You understood how I felt and made me feel so much better. Aww man..*hugz* Thank u kelvin, thank you for talking to me and understanding as well as for being so irritatingly protective and defensive of everything my parents said and did.

Funny how things turn out. Only this morning, or rather more like last morning, I was reading Leviticus 19:18 "Do not take revenge on anyone or continue to hate him, but love your neighbor as you love yourself. I am the Lord. " Call this rhema faith. It spoke to me as if it was telling me to do something and to expect something later in the day. Sure enough, the incident with my parents as well as how I felt made me stop and think that no matter what happens, I still must forgive.

P.S. Silly monster, I'm ok. Even if I do not tell you, you know that I'm starting to feel worn out now, and I thank you for your endless prayers, patience, care and understanding, not to mention your naggings as well. I do believe that things will turn out fine... yeah? (^-^)

-Yours truly ;