With the Holy Spirit

Monday, March 05, 2007

Yeees, I know I haven't been updating!! I'm sorry!. Been taking a pretty loong break. Well, not exactly break. Break wasn't break. Chinese New Year wasn't Chinese New Year.

This is a self-confession of a violated, nasty-tempered, irritated and frustrated 19 year and 4 month plus year old lady monster....

My life is a stage- my darlings are my professors, my relationships are my studies, my meals are my lectures and tutorials, my breathing space is only when I'm alone without intrusion. I feel violated, violated because I'm being watched every where I go. It's getting on me that not only my family members, but also my neighbours, can watch my every move - when I'm bathing (unless I do so uncomfortably sitting down), when I'm studying, when I'm sleeping, when I'm singing, when I'm dancing, when I'm talking. I feel violated. I feel like tearing down that big bungalow with the overlooking balcony across my street- that darn surveillence camera. I'm in a very horrible mood right now.

I feel like I'm being torn apart, inside out. Dug up, upside down. I need space. I need time. I need...sigh. I'm tired from deprived mental energy, robbed from personal time, stolen from my own self.

Yeah, I need my 3 months break. Soon. Period.

-Yours truly ;