With the Holy Spirit

Sunday, September 09, 2007

I'm really upset. I lost my wallet. Everything is gone. I've no identification save for my only identification in Christ. And my pathetic passport. Though I know that deep down there are much worse things that could happen, yet, I still feel so upset that I had lost everything. I had saved so much only to set aside some money to buy presents for my friends celebrating their birthdays in September, just to to lose all these money. And they were close to $100 in cash.

$100 seemed like peanuts to everyone, especially to those working. And to those who earn thousands of dollars a month, they cannot understand how much $100 means to them.

But to me, when I'm given allowances, and I work part-time so that I can save money to go to World Youth Day and I scrimp and save money only with the thought to buy presents for friends, it means so much to me. What more the hassle of having to go to the Singapore and France immigration office, to go to the state police to report missing my IC, then to the traffic police to report my missing driving licence, and to the Singapore and France immigration office because of my lost identiy cards and having to pay hundreds of dollars to make them again, then to go to the Campus office to obtain new matriculation card, cuz of it’s utmost importance on campus, and needing it everywhere I go?

More than that, losing photos that I had kept inside over the years, especially those of my best girlfriends, and cards that special people have given me. I just felt so upset. The worse part being that there was lack of empathy in people who have never really lost everything before.

It didn't help that my dad disappointed me again.
No one will really understand. At least not at this point of time, 'cuz only more hurt will be felt when their doors slam shut in my face.

That hurt.
A lot.

Then again, humans always fail one another.

-Yours truly ;